When My Life Collided With Your Grace
Do you remember the day we first met—the moment when my life unexpectedly collided with Your grace?
There was a time in my life when I walked through each day with a heavy and exhausted soul. I had no dreams for tomorrow, no courage for today, and no strength left to keep pretending that everything was fine. I survived each day only because I didn’t know what else to do. I felt like an empty shell, breathing but not living, existing but not hoping.
There were nights when I cried until my body trembled, asking the same question over and over:
“Why is my life like this? Why do I feel so alone? Why can’t I find meaning in anything?”
Lost in My Own Brokenness
I was lost—lost in pain, lost in confusion, lost in my own brokenness. I wore a mask so others wouldn’t see, but inside I felt like I was drowning. I didn’t have the courage to live, nor the courage to end my life. I simply drifted through the days, numb and directionless.
And yet…
Even in that darkness, even when I didn’t know You, didn’t seek You, didn’t understand Your love—You were there.
You were watching.
You were waiting.
You were pursuing me with a love I didn’t yet recognize.
And the moment I finally turned toward You, even just slightly, You ran to me as though I had been Your treasure all along.
Recognizing a Love That Was Always There
When I look back now on those painful days, comparing them to the life I live today, tears come to my eyes—not because of sorrow, but because of profound gratitude. God, You loved me so deeply, so patiently, so faithfully. You loved me long before I understood what love even meant.
I find myself whispering again and again,
“I have been loved so much—far more than I ever imagined.”
A Gentle, Steady Transformation
The transformation You brought into my life didn’t happen in an instant. It wasn’t a sudden burst of light that erased years of wounds. Instead, it was slow, steady, gentle—like dawn breaking through darkness, little by little, until the whole sky is filled with morning light.
You touched the deepest parts of me—the parts I hid even from myself—and You healed them one by one.
I have never forgotten those moments, not even for a day. And I know I must never forget them, because everything good that I have now is a testimony of Your grace. My joy, my peace, my strength, my identity, my purpose—they are all gifts You placed in my hands.
Miracles Seen and Unseen
There have been miracles…
Countless miracles.
Some small and quiet, others breathtaking and unmistakable. Some came in the form of answered prayers; others came as unexpected provisions, divine encounters, restored relationships, or healing I didn’t even dare to ask for. There were moments when it was so obvious that You intervened that I could only fall to my knees in awe.
Even now, as I sit and write these words, my heart is overwhelmed. It feels like I am reliving every moment of Your kindness—every tear You wiped away, every wound You healed, every fear You silenced with Your presence.
If Only I Had Known I Was Loved
If only I had known back then that Someone loved me this much…
If only I had known that there was a Savior who saw my pain, who understood my despair, who longed to carry my burdens…
My days of hopelessness might not have felt so endless.
But even this—Your timing—is perfect.
Because when You lifted me out of that pit of despair, I knew without question that it was Your hand that saved me. And I learned that hope is real only because You are real.
Living Each Day With Gratitude
Now, each day, I live with a heart overflowing with gratitude. Even when life becomes busy, even when responsibilities pile up, even when challenges arise, there are moments when memories of those dark days suddenly return—
and with them come tears of thankfulness.
Not sadness, but deep, reverent gratitude.
Because I have seen the contrast.
I know the difference between life without You and life with You.
Whenever I remember where I used to be, I can only bow my head and whisper,
“Thank You, Lord. Thank You for saving me. Thank You for loving me. Thank You for never giving up on me.”
A Life Completely Resurrected
You did not simply improve my life—You resurrected it.
You didn’t just relieve my pain—you replaced it with purpose.
You didn’t give me temporary happiness—you gave me eternal hope.
You took my identity, shattered and confused, and replaced it with one anchored in You.
You showed me that I am Your beloved daughter—chosen, redeemed, and created with intention.
Walking With God Through Every Season
There are days I still feel weak.
Days I still feel uncertain.
Days when the world feels heavy again.
But the difference now is that I don’t walk alone.
Your Spirit lives within me.
Your Presence guides me.
Your love surrounds me.
Your grace sustains me.
When I face challenges, I no longer say, “Why is my life like this?” Instead, I ask,
“Lord, what are You teaching me? What are You strengthening in me?”
Because now I know that everything You allow has purpose, and everything You do is rooted in love.
Only God Can Redeem This Way
Even the trials became blessings.
Even the waiting became preparation.
Even the disappointments became redirection.
Only God can turn ashes into beauty.
Only God can turn brokenness into testimony.
Only God can turn despair into worship.
There were moments You held my hand gently, and moments You carried me entirely. Times You waited for me to trust, and times You pushed me because You knew I was ready.
Through every season, Your love never changed.
My Heart’s Song to the One Who Saved Me
You became my refuge, my healer, my teacher, my comforter, my Father, my Friend, my Savior.
You became my everything.
How can I not love You?
How can I not praise You?
How can I not offer my life back to You?
Everything I am today is proof of Your mercy.
Every blessing I have is evidence of Your generosity.
Every step I take is guided by Your grace.
That is why I offer You this song of gratitude—not just with my voice, but with my life.
My entire existence is a hymn to Your faithfulness.
Forever Loved, Forever Yours
I do not live perfectly, but I live gratefully.
I may not know what tomorrow brings, but I know Who is leading me.
I may face trials again, but I know the One who overcame the world.
My heart belongs to You.
My story belongs to You.
My future belongs to You.
Lord, You have loved me more deeply than anyone ever has or ever will.
You saw value in me when I saw nothing.
You called me “beloved” when I felt unworthy.
You pursued me when I ran away.
You remained when everyone else left.
How could I ever forget such love?
With every breath, I want to remember Your goodness.
With every decision, I want to reflect Your heart.
With every step, I want to follow Your leading.
And so, with a heart overflowing, once again I say:
Thank You.
Thank You for saving me.
Thank You for healing me.
Thank You for calling me Your daughter.
Thank You for rewriting my story.
To You, who gave me everything and loves me still, I offer the highest praise my soul can give:
I love You, Lord Jesus.
With all my heart, with all my soul, with all my strength—
I love You.